Yes, it's time I officially started a new goddess quilt. This one has been on my mind so much I think it's eaten a hole in my brain! Why else would I be starting this while I'm working on a new book, dvd, designing 150 new designs, and writing the big book all at the same time?!
Either I must be a glutton for punishment or I've finally given into my greatest desire through the summer - to quilt, quilt, quilt through the heat.
And just a disclaimer before I get going - this will be a personal post so if you'd rather not read it,
click here to check out new designs on the project.
But it's more than just the urge to be quilting right now. This design has been working on me since the middle of
Hot Cast. The two were really dreamed up around the same time and both embody the same theme: finding the ability to love myself.
Hot Cast was all about the transition and learning process. How to find that compassionate, loving voice and how to listen to it, rather than all the negative monsters in my head.
Through Hot Cast I've been working to believe the words "
I Am Enough" and to live them. Maybe that quilt was too small, maybe the design was just not quite right, but I find myself still struggling to fully accept the fact that I am Enough, and more importantly - that I Am DOING Enough - that I don't have to work like a mad woman every day just to feel good about myself.
Forged & Welded takes on this second step with a study of strength, power, stability and endurance.
While I'd originally planned to make this quilt small, around the same size as Hot Cast, this week I've changed my mind. Yes, I know I'll regret designing this so large. Yes, I know I'll hate my life when I'm half way through, but I think this is necessary.
Sometimes it takes 80 inches of dense stitching to work something out. While I'd love to say that all my issues with my inner negative voice (INV) were worked out with
Shadow Self, I'd be lying if I didn't admit that I still occasionally struggle with short bouts of depression and utter misery.
Maybe it's how my brain is wired. Maybe it is simply something I'm doomed to deal with for the rest of my life. Maybe I should stop bitching and go get a therapist to drug me up with Prozac. The thing is - I REFUSE to believe any of these "maybes."
I believe that it is possible to live a healthy, balanced life. I don't think this is something special or rare, only given to a chosen few. I HAVE to believe in my ability to resolve, heal, and grow beyond these issues.
So I refuse to believe that my brain chemistry or my dysfunctional childhood are marks on my soul that I will never recover from.I also refuse to drug myself up, dope myself out, and ease away into a state of pharmaceutical oblivion. That is NOT my idea of a solution - that's simply a medicated band-aid that will cover and conceal these issues, but never make them permanently go away.
You can probably tell by now the emotion I'm mostly channeling right now - anger.
Red hot and fiery.
I'm taking all my sad and I'm turning it into mad.For once though, I'm not turning this anger outside to lash on the people around me, or turning it inside to burn my self esteem into ash once again.
Instead I'm turning this rage into pure fuel - hot and strong - with enough power to blast out this INV (inner negative voice) once and for all.
What I've found over the last year is that my INV hates it when I'm strong. It really can't stand it when I feel good, confident, and relaxed. It hates me to feel comfortable.
So what better way to totally and completely irradiate my inner negative voice than a quilt that channels all my strength, all my stability, all my emotion into one place?
A quilt that will not just symbolize power, but will also scream down in every stitch - I AM ENOUGH!
I'm done being a wimp about it. I'm done showing the dark and light sides of my mind together in some sick cohesive body. I'm done showing my body full of darkness with only a glimmer of light from my heart. I'm done allowing my INV even a toe hold in my brain. I won't give it an inch.
And it's high time I stop saying MY inner negative voices - the truth is these words were never, ever mine. They were the words of every abusive person I've allowed in my life. They were words designed to make me feel small, ugly, unwanted, stupid, and unworthy.
These words aren't true, were never true, so it's high time they stopped sounding off in my head!There's a saying in business
"Fake it until you make it."While I don't really like this saying and it's potential implications, I do believe there's an element of truth -
if you believe and act like something is going to happen, chances are it will.I may not have all my issues sorted out, but I'm designing this quilt as though I do. I'm designing this goddess not as a symbol of how I feel right now (that is
Hot Cast), but of how I WANT to feel right now.
I want to feel strong, stable, powerful, and beautiful. I want feel confident in my ability to provide for my family and to no longer stress and fret that I am not doing enough.
Quite simply - I want to be free from the INV for good.So that is why this quilt is being made. Now let's talk about design, my favorite part of every quilt.
For this quilt, I had the flash of inspiration back in January to combine a goddess figure with a sword. I sketched this very rough drawing several months ago to nail down the general idea:
It's an interesting coincidence that both
Hot Cast and
Forged & Welded are largely inspired by my dad, someone I've become much closer to over the last several months.
My dad made me a small sword when I was pregnant with James. I've been into fantasy and science fiction since high school and always wanted a sword to wear to Renaissance Festival. I used a photo of this sword to serve as a template for the design:
Then I shot a picture of myself standing on a box to get the general shape of the goddess. I knew I wanted her hands to be outstretched with large circles in each, and one of James's kick balls worked out just the perfect size as a prop!
So that is how the core goddess body was designed. I work with pencil and paper simply drawing the outline of the photograph, then simplifying it. I've come to respect my own need for simplicity - it is my style.
I probably will never include fingers or toes, eyes, mouth, nose, or ears to my goddesses. I tried incorporating a face with this one and I just couldn't get it right.
I find it difficult to not judge the face, and then loose connection with the goddess herself and what she represents. Better to leave those elements blank rather than put them in and struggle with them.
Now the goddess is nearly complete, but there's a few elements missing.
I've learned from past quilts that I get bored easily when I have to stitch the same design over 60 inches of open space. I simply hate it. I always finish and look at it and wish something more was there.
So learning from this experience, I know that something needs to go into the bottom of the quilt, something to frame the goddess/sword, maybe even tie in with the theme of elemental power and stability.
I've began researching different signs and symbols - what could go in this area and maybe even be a harness for the sword that will add to the overall design?
On Sunday I posted that question and had loads of fun reading through all the comments. Most people had the same thought I did straight off - a big rock.
But how do you quilt a rock? How do you get it to look right on a quilt without looking like a big, black blob?
I considered the issue for awhile, and knowing how the columns gave me fits in Hot Cast, I also ruled out any plinth, stone columns, or similar ideas. They're just too challenging to get perfect.
After ruling out the rock, I began thinking of the design more - what signs to I personally associate with strength and stability?
It didn't take me long to think of the sun. This is a symbol I've used before and will continue to use in my quilts. I love the sun and how light makes me feel more creative and awake.
So I started playing with sun designs at the bottom of the quilt design:
I also saw the sun needed something to make the flames look connected, so I created a swirling surface. The hair of the goddess also changed. She is rising from the surface of the sun after all, she's bound to have some pretty wild hair:
This worked okay, but it still wasn't perfect. While I like how the flames come up around the goddess, I still found the large amounts of open background space frustrating. There would need to be another layer or layers added to the design for it to be complete.
For the first time I decided to work on the computer to create this layer. Using a simple drawing program I created a sun and rays. This is just a placeholder that will allow me to design rays and flames to hit certain points:
I created another layer to place behind the first set of flames. I haven't sketched it all out together yet, but here's how things look lined up on the light box:
No, it's still not quite right, and I'm enjoying fiddling with it so much I'll probably continue to work on it for the rest of the month.
A lot of planning and thinking still needs to happen in terms of how this quilt will be constructed and then quilted. If I decide to piece or quilt sections of the quilt top, it will take longer and be more time consuming.
Personally I'm leaning towards a simple wholecloth with no pieced or appliqued elements, but my mind tends to change whenever I wander into the studio and see all the beautiful fabrics hanging up begging to be cut up for this quilt. The jury is still out on that regard.
Overall it feels like this quilt is moving in the right direction, at the right time and I can't wait to get started!
Let's go quilt,
Leah
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I was going through the quilt shop the other day and realized I've never made a video about the Beginner Free Motion Quilting Fillers DVD. So let's fix that right now!
This video is also available in the Beginner Combo Kit with its companion book, From Daisy to Paisley which features 50 beginner level designs.
No, I will never piece these circle blocks together into a quilt top:
Most of these quilts were intended as bed quilts and the fact is, I just don't make bed quilts anymore!
This design was inspired by the bright veins and textures within orchid flowers. If you look closely you’ll see layer after layer of design all contained with the flower blooms.
Feel free to use this free motion filler design in your quilts,
Feel free to use this free motion quilting design in your quilts
Think about it this way: would you consider piecing a New York Beauty block without a ¼” piecing foot? Would you cut out the pieces with an old yardstick and pair of scissors?
This is why I only carry just those items in the quilt shop that I’ve found really work for free motion quilting and make it easier and aren’t just gimmicky junk.
We also have an Ultimate Quilting Kit that combines the Supreme Slider with Machingers Quilting Gloves and Little Genie Magic Bobbin Washers - really the 3 best tools for free motion quilting for only $48.00.
I love the flowing, organic nature of this design. The center sections of Tree Roots are going to stand out more than the rest of the design because of the travel stitching involved in these areas..
There's only one problem with this - I couldn't color in the white feathers or flames without it messing everything up! So rather than continue to tear my hair out and scream at the computer, I decided to quilt the design on fabric instead:
This STILL didn't work because I didn't cut the fabric big enough and it needs more space at the top for the words to fit, and the thread really isn't showing up enough. Grr Grr Grrr!
The big difference is this time the designs are graphed rather than quilted for this book. For a simple comparison, here's the cover of From Daisy to Paisley:
So whatcha think? I think the white graphs show up much better and on the cover and look very nice. My original graphic design will still be used on the first page of the book so it's not going to waste either.
Feel free to use this free motion quilting design in your quilts
Directional Texture - Center Focused. You can’t miss this center focused texture! Experiment with different designs in the center to see how this will change the texture of the flower. Play with spirals, clusters of circles, or even fill the space with dense stippling for a nice contrast in textures.
The first is Cheri's Tool and some hot fix Swarovski crystals. After seeing Claudia Pfeil's Ice and Fire, I may jump into the crystal craze. I met THE Cheri at the show and really enjoyed her demonstration of applying the crystals, which made me realize just how wrong I'd been doing it before!
Sitting down at both, it's immediately obvious that you're in a totally different world. These may be table mounted, but they are miles away from typical domestic sewing machines!
Here's one last funny story to finish off the weekend:
The trip was uneventful and we stopped to eat on the way into town at Litton's, a restaurant we'd found through Google searches as a great place for a burger (eh, kind of) and an even better place for a slice of pie (definitely agree with that).
Then it was just a short drive down the road to the show. This really is the biggest show I've ever attended and walking through all the quilts was so much fun. James and Josh were with me today which means I didn't get to spend as much time looking at each quilt as I will tomorrow.
It was definitely a fun quilt to make because I could just sit down and stitch one block each evening and by the end of 2 weeks the quilt was completely quilted. Putting it all together actually took more work and effort, but it was definitely worth it in the end.
The best way to see the effect Echo Quilting can have is to look at a Hawaiian Quilt. This is Elaine Zinn's beautiful Hawaiian Quilt I fell in love with last year. The quilting simply echoes the central shape repeatedly until the entire space is filled.
2. Use those edges - The edges of your free motion foot can be helpful guides for echoing. Try stitching a straight line, then use the left side of your foot as a guide and echo that straight line down a practice square.
Most of echoing is about training your eyes to see the space, and your hands to know how and where to move to maintain it. Until you can visualize the echo easily, marking a line will work great to not only make the echo perfect, but also help you see where that line goes and how to move at all times.
4. Mistakes can be beautiful - For this heart, I intentionally made my echo weave in and out, coming closer to and farther away from the shape. Because I stitched it consistently bad, it actually ended up looking pretty good!
Now do it again! And again and again until you an echo quilt in your sleep. Notice how my echoes are really wide this time - about 1/2" apart throughout. This keeps the block soft and cuddly because the quilting isn't dense. The closer your lines of quilting, the more dense and stiff your quilt will be.
But it's more than just the urge to be quilting right now. This design has been working on me since the middle of Hot Cast. The two were really dreamed up around the same time and both embody the same theme: finding the ability to love myself.
So that is how the core goddess body was designed. I work with pencil and paper simply drawing the outline of the photograph, then simplifying it. I've come to respect my own need for simplicity - it is my style.
This worked okay, but it still wasn't perfect. While I like how the flames come up around the goddess, I still found the large amounts of open background space frustrating. There would need to be another layer or layers added to the design for it to be complete.
No, it's still not quite right, and I'm enjoying fiddling with it so much I'll probably continue to work on it for the rest of the month.
