After last week's post, I decided to take my own advice and just focus on one thing. Unfortunately that's just not entirely possible when you have so many balls in the air. I just couldn't stand to drop all the balls!
Lol...that sounded weird. However I did manage to FOCUS and spend most of my time working on this quilt. All that's left now is binding and a quick wash to hopefully crinkle everything up and soften the surface. Not too bad for a week's work!
I have to admit though - focusing isn't always easy for me. My brain really enjoys distracting me with tons of ideas for finishing the quilt AND accomplishing something else at the same time. I kept thinking thinks like:
"Oooo...you could use this quilt to shoot the quilt along videos for January and February! Let's do that! Pick those fills and get the camera ready!"
"You know, this would make an awesome pattern! Let's shoot photos as you quilt it so you can turn it into a pattern later. It will be quick and easy!"
This might seem like innocent, helpful ideas my brain was throwing at me. Good ideas for killing 2 birds with 1 stone and accomplishing multiple things with one pattern.
But here's the deal: I wanted to quilt this quilt for James and get it done THIS WEEK. I also wanted to use thread colors that only slightly contrast, and in some places, they match.
What I mean to say is, I already had a plan for this quilt and expectations for the difficulty of finishing it and the time it would take. I had it all pretty much figured out.
At this stage, if I tried to shoot videos with this quilt, I'd have to totally change my ideas and expectations for this quilt. The thread would need to change, I'd need to spend a few hours planning which stitches to use and where, and then my quilting time would be limited to only the early morning when the house is quiet enough to film.
As for a pattern - they are NEVER "quick and easy." I'm seriously trying to delete those words out of my brain for anything to do with product creation. They take time, tons of energy, and a meticulous attention to detail. In truth if I never make a pattern again it will be too soon.
Rationally, I know all these things, but it seems like my brain forgets them in the quest to turn me into Wonder Woman.
While yes, I could definitely do both of these things, it wouldn't have been either fast or easy and I definitely wouldn't have finished it in the same amount of time. The Space Quilt would not be sitting on my table fully quilted making me feel awesome and productive. It would still be unfinished.
So I choose to ignore my brain this week. I focused on finishing the quilt and I did something I rarely do:
I gave myself permission to quilt it for me and no one else.
This might not seem like a radical thing, but it's feeling more and more like a major big shift in how I think about my projects.
Typically I create a project always with the intention of it being filmed and shared here online. This is the nature of what I do online. I shoot and share EVERYTHING. For the last 2 years at least, I've pretty much filmed and shared everything I've quilted.
And this is starting to look like a bit of a liability. At what point have I given up my choices on my quilts - the simple choice to do what I want to do, to make it for me - in the quest to be a better teacher and create a quilt that is more "filmable."
Looking through my stack of UFOs, the main reason these quilts are in this bin is because at some point my brain decided it would be a GREAT idea to turn them into more than just what I wanted them to be originally:
The Power of Now - This top is finished and needing to be quilted. It hasn't been quilted because I knew my quilting design wouldn't show over the busy fabric. I need to give myself permission to quilt this for me and not need to film it because the quilting simply won't be very visible over those fabrics.
Hawaiian Quilt - These blocks need to be put together and quilted. It hasn't been finished because at some point I thought it would make a nice pattern. So here it sits because the truth is - I don't want to make the pattern, I just want to make the pretty quilt.
There are many more, but these two best illustrate this problem I'm having. At some point my brain hijacked these projects and decided it would be WRONG for me to just finish them as is. They have to be turned into something MORE.
Digging into this, I believe this is the reason I totally flaked out on my goddess quilt challenge this year. How can I make 12 quilts just for me? What if they all turn out like The Power of Now and are unfilmable, even with super contrasting thread?
Rather than face that possibility, I just didn't make the quilts. That goal, like many others, is another UFO waiting to be picked up and finished. And before you say it, yes, this is the path to burnout and I know it.
A craft is worth pursuing ONLY if you can pursue what you want when you want to.
This is the freedom of creativity, and I've somehow lost this due to my own mental paralysis.
So this week I took one small step in the right direction. I finished James's quilt for me, the way I planned to finish it, and I got it done. I didn't shoot videos and I will NOT be making a pattern out of it.
Whew. That feels better. I can now go bind this quilt, wash it, and give it to James without ever needing to worry over it again. I can now look at it without feeling guilty and enjoy cuddling under it without the sense there's something still left undone.
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