Yeah, that title might also read "Be careful what you wish for..." but when it comes to quilting, I have a feeling words written in thread are a bit more powerful than words wished into thin air.
So what am I getting at?
When I stitched out those words, I was meaning to remind myself of the full well-spring of love and energy I have for my family. It's also a way to express my gratitude, something I should do far more often, for the people that mean so much to me.
But what ended up happening is my cup literally overflowed...with work.
I believe I've quilted more in the month of January than in the entire year of 2012 put together. The 25 bobbins I wound at the end of December ran out by January 17th, were re-wound and ran out again on January 23rd. I have used up TWO 5000 meter spools of Isacord thread in ONE month!
Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining or griping about needing to quilt so much, but I can't deny that this month has been an overwhelming and difficult start to my year.
There are many times that I have felt pulled in one million directions by all the different projects for business, for this blog, and somewhere lost at the bottom, quilts for me.
They helped remind me of my strength and WHY I do everything I do. I have an open heart. I want to share and teach. This very simple desire can easily get lost in stress and pressure and fatigue. When your horizon is only storm clouds, it's easy to forget the light and warmth of the sun.
Seeing these words kept my purpose clear, and now that I've stitched myself out from that tight period, I'm able to dust myself off and realize that everything is okay. It was difficult, but I got through it and I'm ready to move on.
So what words for this month?
Well, my experience this month definitely taught me to consider ALL the meanings behind my words. I think I'll be safe with this phrase:
I am here. I love you. I will never leave you.
If this looks familiar, it's probably because you've read Eat, Pray, Love, the amazing book by Elizabeth Gilbert (I've linked to the Audible version which is perfect listen to while quilting). Her words of comfort often play across my journals as well, and these feel particularly important right now.
I need these words right now to help ground me back into reality. I am here. My mind needs to be centered and balanced and focused on the task at hand. I do not need to be falling into the sinkholes of the past or jogging up the gravel roads of the future. I need to be RIGHT HERE in the present.
I love you. I will never leave you. - These words are of course a mantra to my family, but they are also a dedication to myself. In stressful times, I often become my own worst enemy. I stop eating well, I sleep terribly, I bully and punish myself for any sign of weakness. I can be a brutal task master to the slave that is my own soul. This MUST end.
Being kind starts from within - how I treat myself - before it can reflect outwards to anyone else. I must learn to cultivate compassion for myself.
I know from experience the power of quilting to mold, shape, and force change into my life, and I do not doubt that quilting these words today will be like throwing a large rock into a lake, where echoes and ripples flow long after the stone has hit the ground under the water.
So what words will you quilt this month? Have the words you've stitched began rippling through other areas of your life?
We will be learning other ways to quilt words through the entire year, so if you don't like the thread painting / echo quilting method, don't worry, we'll have a new method coming up very soon!
Let's go quilt,