What made this day so wonderful? It's hard to put my finger on just one thing because there wasn't just one thing that made this day magical. It was partly a choice - my choice - to be responsible for both my happiness and the joy everyone had at the party.
Instead of feeling stressed that the food wouldn't be done on time, snappish at my husband to "help me out in here!" I adopted a totally different, blissful attitude. I loved every second of preparing lunch because I CHOOSE to enjoy it. It wasn't a means to an end, it was the process to relish every step of the way.
|Ever attended an Easter egg hunt with a real chicken in attendance?!|
Another reason why today was so amazingly awesome - yesterday was a very bad day. I had a long list of X marks because I caved to my temper, yelled my head off, and the whole day, my mood, James's behavior, everything just steamrolled right down the hill.
What I learned yesterday and hope to never forget is that yelling benefits no one and hurts everyone. I felt terrible, James's behavior got worse, not better, for being yelled at, and I just wanted to run and hide and lock myself away so I wouldn't hurt anyone again.
But instead of allowing myself to hole up in the sewing room and get obsessed with a project (yes, sad to admit, that is what I used to do after behaving badly before), I instead resolved to take responsibility for every damn word that comes out of my mouth. And that means no more yelling. Period.
Is this hopelessly optimistic? I don't think so. In just 6 days of charting my list which contain everything from writing 2 pages in my journal to exercising daily, I find I have a much better grasp on what makes a good day a "good" day. That row of check marks is literally a guide to behaviors and tasks that truly make me happier, easier to live with, and in turn make the people around be happier and easier to live with too.
Figuring all this out right now just feels perfect. As I posted last week, Easter and I have had issues in the past, but today stretched out on the quilt I brought out while James hunted eggs, I smiled in the sun with the knowledge that I have truly created the best Easter ever for my family. One of happy memories, great food, and lots of fun.
No, I know this isn't everyone's idea of Easter. I had some comments to my last post about religion that I chose not to publish because they were rather angry and offensive to me. The fact is, like Christmas, I have had to make these holidays work for me, for how I believe and for what is meaningful for myself and my family.
To me, creating a fantastic, special day for my family was the Best. Day. Ever. I can't wait until the end of May when my Mother-in-Law's birthday will give me the excuse to go over the top all over again!
Let's be happy!