It’s Saturday, my new favorite day of the week because it’s time to share another Light Up Your Life video and post! I can’t tell you how much this new series is lighting up my life and I have a fun story to share with you this week about fear and excitement.
I’m no stranger to feeling fear. No matter how many online classes I teach, no matter how many times I shoot a video, I always feel a kick of fear before jumping into a big event.
In high school I was a bass drummer in the marching band and we would regularly lead the band in cadence onto the field to compete. I got used to feeling afraid, but not letting that fear lock me in place. I really had no choice - I could ruin the performance or keep moving and flowing with my feelings.
Just recently I had a new epiphany. I was getting packed up (always a stressful time) and feeling really overwhelmed and anxious and made myself stop and check in. Are my arms and legs still attached to my body? Is everything working okay? Am I having a heart attack? Nope. Then I’m okay. No matter what is going on, physically I’m okay.
Then I realized I’m also GOING to be okay. I’ll get through this stressful packing situation, I’ll get to Denver, I’m going to be okay.
So I just started saying that over and over: I’m okay and I’m going to be okay.
Later I spent some time digging into the emotions I was feeling and began to digest a new idea – I’m not actually afraid. I’m excited!
Who's that weirdo jumping with excitement?
Adults don’t show excitement, unless we’re wiling to look crazy and slightly immature. James shows excitement by jumping up and down, dancing around, throwing himself on the floor, and rolling around. I rarely express excitement more than a big smile.
So where is all that energy going? Clearly excitement is a POSITIVE way to feel, so why are we suppressing it so hard? Why not dancing around and punch the air – excitement is a rare, fun thing!
But it doesn’t get expressed, and tapping into how I was feeling this week made me realize – I might be running the risk of letting my excitement get misinterpreted as fear. Feeling excited makes my heart race and my hands sweat, but so does fear.
So that’s my story for this week - be careful not to misinterpret excitement as fear. Instead, let your freak flag fly and express it openly, with your whole heart (and arms, and legs, and voice) and relish the feeling of excitement.
I hope this post has helped light your life today! Share your thoughts and any questions in the comments below!